My life has been changed by the Lord I have discovered him and all of his glory. These past few weeks I have been attending church, I have been very curious about the Lord and why people live their life just for him. In these past few weeks my relationship has grown stronger and stronger with Lord. I have found him and I see why so many people dedicate their whole life to him. Last night while sitting alone in my living room I was watching a movie on our savior Jesus Christ and then in that moment of seeing all he went through for us something came over me. I have had this feeling many times before but never like this, is was a much stronger feeling then what I have felt before this was defiantly the Lord. He was there with me I felt him move through me. What was going on I am all alone but someone is here, why am I shaking uncontrollable, why am I crying like this, why am I not afraid of this spirit? Then finally peace overcomes me, I was warm I felt a comfort I never knew existed.
While sitting all alone I found God and he is here for me and my family what ever the struggle may be through him we will find peace and all the reinsurance that we need, he is only here to help. Yes can I say it again I found the Lord and my life will never be the same! This morning I woke with a different outlook on life. This morning I AM HAPPY!! All of my worries are a thing in the past, yes I will probably still worry about Kaylee and what is to come in her life but it will not consume me. The Lord gave me this child not to worry about but to make happy and make my life happy as well. Whatever happens, happens and with the help of our Lord shall we overcome all worries, all struggles, and be happy.
Here lately I have been having many worries, right now my little girl is no longer a baby she is growing fast and becoming a very active child. We are having a hard time with her shoe, she does not want to wear and it breaks my heart to see her struggling with it. She is only 1 years old yes she maybe suppose to be walking but should I push it on her, should I just leave this shoe on her all the time and just hope that she gets use to it, or should I wait until she can ask for it on. Let me tell you she is very active and if it wasn’t for her disability she would be running all over the place, so is it just me holding her back not putting her shoe on her for my own peace of mind so I don’t have see her struggle with it. I sure don’t know the answer as to what I should do as far as her walking but I know all I can do is pray that she finds away to use it and I find away to be at peace with seeing it on her. She wants to go just like my 2 and ½ year old son, I can see her just watching him does she know that she can’t do all the things he can. I pray to the Lord to please let this shoe work please when she is that age and any age she does not feel limited she can do it all she is amazing.
I know just looking at her she is so determined she has already done more then I ever thought was possible so yes all she has to do is put her mind to it and she can do anything. So should I worry? NO, never shall I worry again, the Lord is with her every step she makes now how amazing is that! She will walk, she will run, she will jump, she will play can I possible say she can’t do that, never will those words come out of my mouth. We will all be right behind her through every step in her life. I must say I think to myself isn’t this funny how all that I have been blessed with in my life and all I have took for granted, Lord all you have to do is put this precious little girl with a small handicap in my life and bam my life is changed for the better and I turn my life to you Lord. I have been a person all of my life to take what the Lord has blessed me with for granted and take advantage of all I have, but now something as simple as waking up in the morning and putting my feet on the ground is something to rejoice about. I will never take advantage of your blessing again Lord.
To my precious Kaylee this was all because of you, you helped me more then you will ever know, you helped me find my place in this world, because of you I found God no other blessing is greater then that. Because of you Kaylee my life has changed forever, and now I am happy. To my Lord all I can say is wow What An Honor To Be Her Mother!! Thank you for putting her and my son in my life they are the best thing to ever happen to me, I am so thankful that you have allowed me to take care of them. Kaylee and Kenny you both have truly changed my life. Kaylee I hope that you change many life’s, that is why you are here because you are strong and you can show others see your life is not as bad as you may think, never take your blessings for granted. May the Lord bless all the children w/ handicaps in this world they are all put here for a good reason. Lord I will never ask you why again but now I say thank you for placing this wonderful child in my life. Because of this I have been set free, I am happy and no longer will I fear the unknowing of what is to come in Kaylee’s life. You will guide her through all her struggles, through her rough times, through all of her surgery’s, you will be right by her side through it all, and through her eye’s will I find the courage to face all that is to come and not to fear a thing because through her eye’s I see you Lord.
