What is God trying to tell me?

After all my years on this earth I am finally reading the Bible. I have started many times trying to read and understand Gods word but as the many times of reading I have put down the Bible not to open it again. But in my finding of the Lord I have been looking forward to ever night sitting down and reading the scripture. I have come across a passage in the Bible that has been a little discouraging to me and I am not sure how to take it. My heavenly father what are you trying to tell me in reading this verse, am I worthy, is my family worthy, is this truly a punishment?

In Leviticus 21: 16-24, The Lord say’s “No man who has any defect may come near [ to offer sacrifices to God]: no man who is blind or lame, disfigured or deformed; no man with a crippled foot or hand.”

These are very powerful words, I understand the meaning of these verses they are a strict list of do’s and don’t for men entering the priesthood the Lord was telling to Moses, but what do they mean to me as a mother of a precious child born with a deformity? I am not sure is the Lord saying a sacrifices of these measures, will not be accepted? The Lord clearly says “ Do not bring anything with a defect, because it will not be accepted on my behalf.”

Well I did some heavy researching on this matter and here is what I found. These are some very inspiring words from people with disabilities, families of the disabled, and inspiring words from God himself.

First:

This is from a man in a wheelchair who has just read Leviticus 21, very moving.
“This passage can speak to us today, whether we’re disabled or not. As part of a “royal priesthood” (1 peter 2:9), God welcomes us into his presence, accepting us no matter how disfigured or deformed we are. But when we come before him in worship, we need to make certain that we have been washed in the blood of Jesus and our hearts are clean, harboring no blemish of pride or defect of impurity.
This is a wonderful explanation of this verse OUR HEARTS should be clean of all blemish and defect before we come before the Lord to worship.

Second:
Such religious images powerfully suggest that disability is not at all "abnormal," but that, indeed, all of us are struggling and wounded. All of us are somehow disabled, but giving.
My goal is not to convince you that you should care about disability through statistics or specific examples of families experiencing suffering or a sentimental view of rescuing families experiencing hardship.

Third:
But in loving God and soaking in God’s word you would love God’s sovereignty over all things and cling to all his promises for you SO THAT when disability enters your life – you will boldly and confidently and lovingly, with great anticipation and ‘as sorrowful yet always rejoicing’ cling to God in your circumstances or rush to welcome families like mine, to serve these precious families he has given as gifts to you with the strength God provides with the wisdom he provides with the resources he provides.
And not just to serve those with disabilities, but to be served by those the world and the culture considers expendable, weak, and worthless. To actually long for and seek out fellowship with those who are daily being destroyed and discounted because of disability. To understand and enjoy and soak in the reality of God’s purposes. To rise into your places of responsibility with this counter-cultural, God-centered reality: On the contrary, the parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable (1 Corinthians 12:22).
　
Forth:
Disability is clearly an important issue to God
God states that He created some to live with disability
Disability and disease can be found in 40 of the 66 books of the Bible.
Jesus made disease and disability a central part of his ministry.There are clear instructions about behavior towards and by those with disabilities
Yes If disability are not acceptable then why did Jesus center his ministry around healing the disabled.
Fifth:
Let’s take a quick look at the Word:
John 9:1-3 As he passed by, he saw a man blind from birth. 2 And his disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?” 3 Jesus answered, “It was not that this man sinned, or his parents, but that the works of God might be displayed in him.
As helpful as these passages are, God has proclaimed his sovereignty over his human creation in many other places:
Psalm 139:13-16 13 For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them
Note: This provides particular hope for those of us dealing with a daily hardship – every day is known by God.) No surprises to God; only purpose.
John 1:1-5 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2 He was in the beginning with God. 3 All things were made through him, and without him was not any thing made that was made. 4 In him was life, and the life was the light of men. 5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it
　
My Views:
These are very powerful words that have spoken to my heart. Jesus says “The works of God might be displayed though him“, Wow that is well said! I truly believe that Kaylee and all people with disability are sent to us to help the world see the beauty within. God has used my daughter Kaylee as a tool for us to get closer to him, and God is continuing to reveal more of himself to me through his word. I must say when I first read the verse of Leviticus I cried in disappointment but taking a closer look at the words of God and finding the words of other disabled people have made me understand why Kaylee is here, and why the Lord placed her in my life. I am more proud then ever to say yes my daughter was born with a disability, and yes are heavenly father accepts her as his own for he created her out of love in his heart. You are working wonders in my life Lord and I am listening to everything you are telling me.
　
　

Prayer for the Disabled

God of compassion,
in Jesus Christ you cared for those who were blind or deaf,
crippled or slow to learn.
Though all of us need help,
give special care to those who are disabled,
particularly those we name in silence...
By our concern may they know the love you have for them,
and come to trust you;
through Jesus Christ who came to heal.

Amen